Random thoughts keeping me awake

Sam is snoring so loud I can't believe he hasn't woke himself up!

I wish I had worked harder on my mission. I wonder where Sam and I will go when we serve a mission together.

Man, I need to stop slacking and get back on my diet.

I wonder what it is like at my old job. As soon as all our kids are in school I am getting some kind of job! I can't take being home every day. Maybe I will go to school. I will be like 35 then...but who cares.

I really want to read those two books I just bought.

I am going to stop buying stuff we don't need and use the money I save to get my nails done.

I hope Sammy likes the classes I am signing us up for. I hope he makes friends...I hope I make some friends too.

I wonder if the Beehives are getting anything out of my lessons.

Why does Flojo have to lay by me when she is a thousand degrees?

Do I really have the patience to teach Sammy sign language?

The kitchen is a mess.

I wish I could go back and do everything all over again with what I know now. That's life I guess. School for sure though, why was I so rebellious?

I truly believe that Kathy is trying to sabotage my relationship with my Dad and his relationship with Sammy. I wish I could like her, it would be so much easier.

I wonder who will win Hell's Kitchen, So You Think You Can Dance, Last Comic Standing, and Big Brother.

I wonder if America would like me if I was on a reality show...I'm funny right? Pssh, heck yes I'm funny!

Seriously, why can't I sleep?

I can't believe I had two dreams about poop last night. Don't laugh Jean, keep it together!

What was that noise?!?!

What would I do if someone broke in here? I am definitely getting a gun and I am going to learn to shoot! Gotta keep it locked up so there is no accidents.

I wonder if our nieces and nephews know that we love them. I hope Carolina liked her birthday present.

I am going to be consistent with my discipline. It will be hard but I have to! I can do this!! I wish Sammy didn't have those break my heart big brown eyes! Be tough! I have to! I don't want Sammy to be a brat like some kids I know.

Will I have a girl next? I want a girl so bad! I've dreamed about a girl. I feel there is a daughter out there for me.

Why am I so exhausted all the time? I definitely need to start taking my vitamins again. I don't eat anything healthy! Need to start waking again but it is so hot!!

I really need to start doing my Rosetta Stone again. Man, I wish I had taken Spanish in high school. I wish I could take a class now...I would hate being away from Sammy.

Sam seriously falls asleep in less than 30 seconds. I can't imagine 12 hour work days, poor guy.

I wish I could always control my temper.

In a few minutes I will flip my pillow and it will be cool and that'll help me sleep.

I'd listen to my sleep machine app but my ears are sore from the headphones.


These are just the few that I could remember. Sam and I went to bed around 10:30. I started watching cartoons on his iPod and playing games on mine. I do this every night and it usually takes me about an hour to fall asleep. I fell asleep but around 12:30 Sammy woke up. I gave him a bottle and changed him then put him back in his crib. It took less than five minutes but when I got back in bed I was wide awake! It is now 3:58am. If I am lucky Sammy will sleep until 8. Tomorrow is going to be awful! At least I can nap but of course if I nap too long then I will have this same problem tomorrow night. I hope everyone out there is having sweet dreams.